"A considerable percentage of the people we meet on the street are people who are empty inside, that is, they are actually dead. It is fortunate for us that we do not see and do not know it. If we knew what number of people are actually dead and what number of these dead people govern our lives, we would go mad with horror"

"These are interesting times. On one hand there are changes happening on a global scale that can't really be ignored much longer. On the other hand the majority of the population seem to live their lives as if everything is just as it always is, and always will be, forever locked in a tunnel vision of personal and material interest."

Obliverate wrote on 01/25/15 at 09:09:56:


It's funny you say I disregard others, but then proceed to disregard me.

I'm not special I just often wonder why people don't help one another. I am unable to disregard anyone. It's one of my downfalls. I always give everyone the benefit of doubt that they're a mutual respectable human being, and what do they do with that? They see it as weakness and take advantage. Here I am just trying to get on by and be courteous and respectable to others and they just cant help themselves but be douchebag assholes. Then I flip out because look, I was being nice and they took advantage. Now they truly deserve the worst. When I see this crap day in and day out yeah it begins to wear on me. I didn't just fall into a self loathing depression and started thinking 'everyone sucks' No everyday I'm out there interacting and see this and continues to prove it. I wake up in the morning usually thinking positive in hopes of having a good day, until another piece of shit incident happens. O.k. person having a bad day, ignore and pass by. Another piece of shit incident happens, then another, then another, then I stop counting. Then I arrive home thinking "wow, toilet bowl society" Clearly I'm in the wrong place and need to associate with more and different people. It's that or become like them. Numbing myself to others and everything wrong that happens around me. Just stay focused on my own agenda and getting ahead. Essentially becoming 'dead' inside.