SynthR
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LMAO, P7 you bitter son of a bitch.
Whether you're aware of it or not stress and life in general will get to you one way or the other. One day you can be totally fine and then the next you can have a nervous breakdown over something you're not aware of. I'm going to ramble a bit but some where in here I'll make a point.
I've mentioned a few times that I suffer from generalized anxiety (It runs in the family) and I've had to learn to deal with it throughout the years but I'm stuck with this for the rest of my life. In the last 10 years my anxiety has always been over the same thing, feeling worthless. No job, no education, no relationship, no vehicle, loneliness. Just the all encompassing feeling of having nothing.
I don't want to lump you with me, Xizor but you and I are in similar boats. Honestly, I would rather be enraged than mentally crippled though, ha. Anyway, you mentioned to me the other day that you have people in your life that tell you that YOU need to change yourself. It's true, you're in control of your life and you're the only person that can change things but having people stand over you doesn't help the stress. You have to tell them to back off. My Father is like that. He doesn't understand what anxiety is and how it works. His therapy is "GET OVER IT! IT'S IN YOUR HEAD!" Sound advice Dad.
It's easy to tell someone to get a job when that person already has one. You know how many interviews I've had this year? Four at most and I've applied everywhere. Finding a job is extremely difficult these days. For me, not having a job leads to many worries. How will I pay for school, what do people think of me, how will I feed myself and be able to go out on the weekend? That's my thought process. I start to worry and think of all these negative ideas and possibilities.
Fuck I have no idea what I'm talking about anymore. I'll just get to my point. The best way that I have found to cope with stress is to stop doing whatever it is you do everyday. I found myself waking up, doing the whole shower breakfast thing and then spending the rest of my day playing video games or music or something. What a life. You have to break the routine and do different things to ease your mind. I go for walks or long bike rides just to get out. Watch TV somewhere else in the house. Read a book outside. Even rearranging things helps a lot. I had to rearrange my bedroom to help with the anxiety. There's a lot of bad memories and sleepless nights in that room. You have to break that cycle of negative thinking and take it from me, I'm a fucking pro at negative thoughts and worries. Changing your routine significantly helps.
In your case, maybe pick up a punching bag to knock the shit out of a few times a day. It's exercise, it relieves stress and you'll be too tired later to go ballistic. Exercise is a key tool to use against stress. I'm terribly out of shape now after being in a relationship for so long but I just recently fixed my bike up and have begun riding again. It's great to get back out there again like I used to. I've found that it helps a lot especially if I feel anxiety coming on. As soon as I start riding my buzzing stomach or feelings of nausea tend to disappear. In your case, Xizor, you could pick up the drums again. I don't anything about that situation but if you could somehow get a set and start playing it would probably help especially if you're still passionate about it.
Different things work for different people so you're kind of on your own when it comes to finding exactly how to correct this. My only advice is to break that cycle of daily routine and thinking. If you want to see your girlfriend find out when she will be home and try to get over to her place. You want a job just do your best to apply to places. Getting hired is out of your control. Use that anger to say fuck it and go do something. I actually used rage to get over my worst bout of anxiety years back so I know anger works extremely well in some situations.
Harness that power and fulfill your destiny to become a sith lord.
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